D is for Demi

ANOTHER D.

ANOTHER D on a paper for advanced comp!!!!!!!! I AM LIVID. She gave us instructions, which I followed to a T, and I got a 60.

Whatever. So now I will have to work my ass off.

Here is a list of things I need to do over my fall break....

• Start my semester project that I should have been doing over the past two months... 
• Start my math project that I am dreading...
• Start my essay for Advanced Comp... UGH
• ^I have to find a preverse topic because my professor has a sick sense of humor 

And to add to the stress...

I have picked up a job... today in fact.

I signed up to be a note taker.... Basically, I go to these classes and take notes on the lecture and then upload them onto this website for the person who will be using them. 

Each class I take notes for, I get $100 at the end of the semester... I signed up for two of them.... Hopefully I can handle this... I need the money though.

I mean, I will be going to a class on Tue/Thur and I don't even have classes that day, only a lab later in the day on Thursdays. 

But the other class is during my break on MWF.

THIS IS A BETTER DEAL THOUGH...

Normally, the notetaking will take place at the beginning of the semester, not the middle of the semester... So basically I'm doing half the work for all of the cost. 

My dad says it isn't worth it, but I mean, it's free classes, and they seem interesting.

BUT, for my stress level............

UGH we will see how this goes.... 

PS... Why is it October and still 90 degrees outside?

The Sophomore Slump Is Real!

This semester has been kicking my ass. My classes are much harder than my easy breezy freshman year, and I am the biggest procrastinator. So all the posts I promised, probably won't be coming anytime soon or at all. Sorry about that, but let's get a quick update about what's going on in my life right now...

This semester I've made an abundant amount of friends for some reason, more than I did in my freshman year. I've been trying to balance my social and academic life, and it's taken a deep toll in my academic life, so this October I've been grinding my butt off trying to get my life where I want it to be.

My personal life is a mess, my social life is a mess, my academic life is a mess, and my love life is a mess. Did I forget to mention that I went on a date with someone and that since then we've been seeing each other, but then it stopped? I have been so busy, I truly forgot to answer this person and he probably assumed that I ghosted him. But I mean, if I didn't really care to keep in touch while I was busy, I don't think I was really into him at all. I think he was perfect on paper, but he has too many issues at the moment that I am not willing to deal with as I have no time for my own problems. Oh, but not to worry! Just another person to avoid on campus now!


My hardest classes I would say are math and advanced composition.

My math class is titled "College Mathematics" and it's a lie. The class is all about statistics and surveys. Life would have been so much easier with algebra and just solving for x rather than finding all this other shit out that I don't care about. Surprisingly, I am not failing the class, just passing with a solid B-.

Advanced Comp, I am taking online. It's so hard because I have all my other classes to worry about and I cannot focus on this online one. Plus the teacher grades so hard and makes us post on blackboard discussion boards multiple times each week for a grade. AND I have never ever made a D on a paper, UNTIL THIS CLASS. She basically told me I was a bad writer. IN MY LIFE, I have never been told that, I've been told the opposite.

So with that, I have come to the conclusion that all those other teachers who told my I am a great writer, were liars, or this professor knows nothing! I have chosen to believe that all the teachers who told me so, were liars. I have decided to humble myself and instead, focus on becoming a better writer--after all, the stupid me decided to major in ENGLISH, what!

Other than that... my grades are okay. They are not where I'd like them to be, but they are better than a D. I was honestly expecting to see one D, but there were none, so I'm happy about that.

And here I am editing my blog when I should be working on my paper for advanced comp that is due at midnight that I have only barely started on today....

As usual, I need to get my shit together.